ah, i'm amazingly awake. should be so tired now lah. and on Thursday i only went out for a few hours and i was so tired. heh. okay i don't know why. haha.

okay so anyway, is anything happening and i do not know? what's going on? hmms. cause i really don't know anything!
or rather, i'm too scared to want to try to know. too scared.
so if there is, someone please enlighten me. i can't be always lost right! [unfortunately, i think i always am. hahaha.]
okay i think life is so confusing!

let's hope the days ahead will be fine. heh.

went shopping with Daisy today.
i bought 3 tops and a pair of shorts! :)

and yes, you're right, i'm so broke now.
haha sighs.

back home.

had great dinner with lyn and cherisa at Lau Pa Sat today. haven't met up with them for ages!
but don't know why my flu haven't recover.. i used up all the tissue paper lyn brought. heh :/

and after that we walked to Esplanade! had great fun. bought drinks too. and we just talked and talked.

i'm so amazed. my good friends actually still read my blog! yayee. and you said you are 'always here'.
oh yes and one thing that everyone have been telling me is that: "Your entries are getting longer. That's good." okay thanks. everyone knows that now. hahaha.

and you, we're born on the same Year, same Month, same Day, but why don't we ever celebrate our Birthdays together? haha.

take my hand, and pull me out from this.

and make sure i never fall in again.
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this is what i feel when i'm sad.

and oh i really have weird thoughts sometimes.
when i'm sad i'll wish that i can lose my memory all over again, this way i won't have to remember the things i don't want to remember.
okay i know that's quite silly because i'll be scaring my friends [those who were already so worried the other time] all over again.
but apart from that, it's a good way to forget things don't you think.. i'll be oblivious to things that once made me unhappy, and won't feel anything at all.
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and okay sometimes i'd wonder if i really have to leave this place someday, who will really be sad?

okay see i told you i have weird thoughts! hah.
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at different points in time i'll assess myself, things and people around me. and i'll realise how things can really change. haha. yah i know change is probably the only constant thing. [which makes me really scared sometimes. and sometimes the things that happen to me are.. amazing. not everyone experiences that, i think. heh.] so i better learn to adapt.

it's my life, i have the power to change things too don't i?

i better learn how to live in the midst of all this, cause no one will help me. (of cause, i think it's easier said than done.)
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wah reflections. haha.

no lah just things i think sometimes. haha.

on the way there today, i passed by that place, and thought to myself "ah i miss that place."

and on my way back, i saw the other place, and i realised how much i miss it too.
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some things in life are really amazing.

which makes me afraid sometimes.

i actually have a continuous supply of tears! it's amazing. heh.

sighs.

finished watching "Wonderful Life". it's such a nice show! i cried so much.
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many, many things i don't understand.

but at this point in time, i don't want to understand.

maybe i shouldn't bother about some things anymore.

i keep repeating this line over and over in my head and thinking that hopefully, it'll sink in.

okay back from studying with Gerald.
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dinner time! haha. =)